i haven't realized that it's been a month since i've last updated this online journal. not that nothing's been happening to me, it's just that i've been so busy with school that whenever i went online i'd rather visit surf the web than to write an entry.

i've been having a tough time in school. i haven't been doing well in the grades department. first, i've been very disappointed. but i later realized that a student would fail sometime, and it only took a while before it happened to me. i also realized that it was all for the best. i've been through tougher problems in high school (much worse than getting a failing grade), and i've survived. we had another killer quiz in cost accounting this morning. i dont know how i did, our prof is so unpredictable. i just gave it my best shot. i'm keeping my fingers crossed. but still, there's always the midterm exams. hehe

this afternoon i watched a live telecast of survivor all-stars, and that episode really touched my heart. really. no kidding. there was this girl jenna (i think she's from survivor amazon) and she really missed her family. esp. her mom. her mom's very sick and jenna wished to go back home to be with her mom. she has this feeling that something bad might happen to her mom while she was away. just some kind of vibe or something. she went home. then i found out that her mom died eight days later.

it really touched my heart. normally i wouldnt fall for things like that, but then i realized how much i love my mom and if i was in jenna's place, i would do the same. i mean, if anything happens to my family and im not there to see them in their last days, i would never have forgiven myself.

i'm just happy that my parents are there to support me. two weeks ago i cried in front of my mom when i told her of my bad grades and she told me it was alright. it was my dad who told me that everyone is bound to fail sometime. they know that i've been studying really hard and i gave it my best shot.