hell no

i ain't gettin married

not yet anyway

yesterday my future in laws came to our house to meet my parents. they were suggesting that we get married even though we're miles away from each other!!!

no no no no no no!

i'm too polite to say that i don't like the idea. but i really don't. even though i do love biboy, i don't want to get married just for the sake of the baby, the benefits we're gonna get if we're married, etc. to people who don't know the kind of relationship biboy and i have, they would think that this is another classic case of "pikot".

ever since i was a little girl, i have been dreaming about my future wedding. i remember watching movies and tv specials of weddings and thinking about my own. of course, i would prefer a simple and intimate affair - with close family and friends, and with the man i love.

i have found the perfect man, but the question now is, do i really wanna get married?

everyone, esp his side of the family, is expecting a church wedding. his relatives are saying that even if we have a civil wedding at first, i deserve a church wedding afterwards. god knows i wanted one!

i have been thinking about this since last night. i had to admit i got excited. i was thinking that for once, i'm gonna be the star, i'm gonna be pampered. i actually missed out on a 7th bday party, a debut, but now i'm gonna get married! in church!

then i started surfing for how much a decent wedding costs. 150K is a good enough budget. well, if i'm the groom i can afford this. i can even throw in a 2nd honeymoon (well we're gonna have a baby)! my mom doesn't want the family to carry the cost of a wedding so she's not even suggesting a church wedding. it's his family who did.

now i'm torn. i know he won't be able to afford the wedding of my dreams. i'm being materialistic, but i'd rather not get married at all.

i'm sorry biboy. it would really seem like i'm asking too much. i would only get married once, so if ever i tried getting married, then i would want it to be perfect

daydream mode... my dream wedding (time to feel sorry for myself, no one reads this blog anyway haha, lucky me!)

i would like to wear a white dress, put on make up, have my hair curled or whatever, the works man. i mean, for a not-so-pretty girl like me, my wedding would be the last time i could have my hair and make up done and look beautiful. i mean, look at my prom and grad pics! simon cowell would cringe and say that i got dressed in the dark

i would like my sister as my maid of honor. oh, and my gay cousin herson could be one too! at his request

i would finally get my mom to wear a gown... something i haven't seen her do in all my 22 years on earth. the mothers of the bride and groom to be should wear matching outfits

biboy would be looking so handsome in a barong... or a tux... i'd prefer a barong. he'd look better in a barong.

my entourage could wear whatever they wanna wear. it would be less expensive for me, plus, if they buy their own outfits they can choose whatever style they want so they can wear it elsewhere. honestly now, my friends are excited to dress up for my wedding. sorry to disappoint you guys, but this church wedding would only happen in my dreams

my baby would wear a beautiful gown, or a nice barong. she could be our flower girl or he could be the ring bearer. if ever i'm getting married, i'd time it so he/she could already walk down the aisle by his/herself. at almost 2 yrs old, perhaps?

no need to hire a professional photographer now. i could ask kuya (chris, my teammate) to take our pics. he took the pics of another teammate's wedding. but i would like to have nice pre-nups done of biboy and i

the cake! haven't thought about it though. i don't like a towering cake. a simple wedding cake will do. no one likes to eat those anyway...

i know someone who can cater. my teammate's got a catering business, and so does my college classmate. maybe i can get a discount

if only jigs is in the phils, i would get him to sing at my wedding. it has been our joke during college that he would sing at my wedding. too bad he's in canada. he told us he'd be going home in 2 or 3 yrs for vacation though

wedding car... ours will do just fine

then after the wedding we'd get home with our baby. no need for a honeymoon. we're already past that phase

our wedding would be the most memorable day of my life



not gonna happen

god, why do i have to do this post just to feel sorry for myself

marian, the preggy drama queen

being pregnant with no man to take care of you could really make you think... a lot!