i'm getting married! .... not
8:54 PM
hell no
i ain't gettin married
not yet anyway
yesterday my future in laws came to our house to meet my parents. they were suggesting that we get married even though we're miles away from each other!!!
no no no no no no!
i'm too polite to say that i don't like the idea. but i really don't. even though i do love biboy, i don't want to get married just for the sake of the baby, the benefits we're gonna get if we're married, etc. to people who don't know the kind of relationship biboy and i have, they would think that this is another classic case of "pikot".
ever since i was a little girl, i have been dreaming about my future wedding. i remember watching movies and tv specials of weddings and thinking about my own. of course, i would prefer a simple and intimate affair - with close family and friends, and with the man i love.
i have found the perfect man, but the question now is, do i really wanna get married?
everyone, esp his side of the family, is expecting a church wedding. his relatives are saying that even if we have a civil wedding at first, i deserve a church wedding afterwards. god knows i wanted one!
i have been thinking about this since last night. i had to admit i got excited. i was thinking that for once, i'm gonna be the star, i'm gonna be pampered. i actually missed out on a 7th bday party, a debut, but now i'm gonna get married! in church!
then i started surfing for how much a decent wedding costs. 150K is a good enough budget. well, if i'm the groom i can afford this. i can even throw in a 2nd honeymoon (well we're gonna have a baby)! my mom doesn't want the family to carry the cost of a wedding so she's not even suggesting a church wedding. it's his family who did.
now i'm torn. i know he won't be able to afford the wedding of my dreams. i'm being materialistic, but i'd rather not get married at all.
i'm sorry biboy. it would really seem like i'm asking too much. i would only get married once, so if ever i tried getting married, then i would want it to be perfect
daydream mode... my dream wedding (time to feel sorry for myself, no one reads this blog anyway haha, lucky me!)
i would like to wear a white dress, put on make up, have my hair curled or whatever, the works man. i mean, for a not-so-pretty girl like me, my wedding would be the last time i could have my hair and make up done and look beautiful. i mean, look at my prom and grad pics! simon cowell would cringe and say that i got dressed in the dark
i would like my sister as my maid of honor. oh, and my gay cousin herson could be one too! at his request
i would finally get my mom to wear a gown... something i haven't seen her do in all my 22 years on earth. the mothers of the bride and groom to be should wear matching outfits
biboy would be looking so handsome in a barong... or a tux... i'd prefer a barong. he'd look better in a barong.
my entourage could wear whatever they wanna wear. it would be less expensive for me, plus, if they buy their own outfits they can choose whatever style they want so they can wear it elsewhere. honestly now, my friends are excited to dress up for my wedding. sorry to disappoint you guys, but this church wedding would only happen in my dreams
my baby would wear a beautiful gown, or a nice barong. she could be our flower girl or he could be the ring bearer. if ever i'm getting married, i'd time it so he/she could already walk down the aisle by his/herself. at almost 2 yrs old, perhaps?
no need to hire a professional photographer now. i could ask kuya (chris, my teammate) to take our pics. he took the pics of another teammate's wedding. but i would like to have nice pre-nups done of biboy and i
the cake! haven't thought about it though. i don't like a towering cake. a simple wedding cake will do. no one likes to eat those anyway...
i know someone who can cater. my teammate's got a catering business, and so does my college classmate. maybe i can get a discount
if only jigs is in the phils, i would get him to sing at my wedding. it has been our joke during college that he would sing at my wedding. too bad he's in canada. he told us he'd be going home in 2 or 3 yrs for vacation though
wedding car... ours will do just fine
then after the wedding we'd get home with our baby. no need for a honeymoon. we're already past that phase
our wedding would be the most memorable day of my life
not gonna happen
god, why do i have to do this post just to feel sorry for myself
marian, the preggy drama queen
being pregnant with no man to take care of you could really make you think... a lot!
i love him, i miss him, but i don't think i want to be with him
4:56 PM
yup.. you're reading that right.
i love him.. .a lot
i miss him... a lot
but i don't think i want to be with him
even if we're going to have a child together
meeting my daddy biboy is the best thing that happened to me. the two months i spent with him are the best two months of my life. i felt that he feels the same way about me
but that was then
last week i saw him exchanging emails with the same girl he cheated his ex with. he told her how much he misses the girl, how he won't forget her, how much he wanted to date her had she emailed him while he was here in the phils. the emails were dated 23rd of April, 4 days after he left! so i don't think he's being homesick, no no
what hurts the most is during that time i remember him telling me how much he misses me, and he even cried once. so during that time, he was also reminiscing about the "stolen" times he spent with the girl, while he still had a girlfriend
so there were three emails. there's him asking about the girl's boyfriend, though. but at the end he asked her out, saying that should the girl have emailed him earlier, he could have dated her because of their "pinagsamahan". finish whatever they started, perhaps?
he didn't even tell the girl that he's got a girlfriend - me!
i know i shouldn't have been affected, because whatever relationship they had - which is also illicit - happened in the past, before he even met me. but i can't help it. not when i knew of all this after i found out i was pregnant. not really a good thing for a preggy girl to go through
what made it worse for me, was the girl wasn't even his ex-girlfriend! it was just someone introduced to him, they went out a few times, made out a few times as well - on his girlfriend's back! god knows, he might even have slept with her, although he won't admit it to me.
oh, and when asked, he said that his ex knew he was seeing the other girl, but forgave him. his ex didn't know he was also lip locking that other girl
i knew he had a few girlfriends - my guy was good looking. but he didn't tell me about this affair he had. all the time i've been honest to him - i've told him bout my ex, my flings, some other stuff i did - but he can't even be honest to me
of course i blew my top off when i found out. i forgave him - heck, those were just emails. he was claiming he doesn't mean what he said in those emails. he just said those... just because he wasn't thinking...
and he wants to impress her by telling her he misses her, wont forget her, and he's been looking for her everywhere
lame excuse
i still can't understand why he has to tell the girl that when he doesn't really mean it
all the time he was telling me he loves me, he was thinking of that other girl
men
my guy has been telling he loves me, and he won't hurt me again. he broke my trust. it was a small thing - just emails, throw in a few internet chats or so - but still he hurt me real bad. God knows i've been crying every night, thinking about how he can't be honest to me, when i've been nothing but honest to him
am i really a girl no guy would take seriously? after what i've been through, don't i deserve to be happy?
he has been telling me that he wants to marry me when he comes back. how could i be sure that he won't seek out that other girl and continue whatever affair they had? what if another person from his past came back to haunt him? what if he gets introduced to another girl and he falls into temptation - again?
i wish he won't do that to me
i know i might be being paranoid, but my guy has a history of cheating on a girlfriend. what's the difference between his ex and me? what if he does it me...
i've made up my mind. i won't be marrying him.. even if i'm having his baby.
i don't think i want to marry a guy i don't trust completely
i'm hoping that, when he comes back, he would change my mind. he would make me fall in love with him again the same way that i did before i found out about his mistakes
i'm hoping that he would prove himself to me, and that we could live together, and my baby doesn't have to grow up without a dad
i'm happy now. i'm pregnant. i'm gonna have a kid. whatever happens, i made him swear to take care of my baby even if we don't end up being together
still i'm praying
i'm praying that he would keep his word and not hurt me again
i don't think i want to be with him... yet
i'm getting married! .... not
8:54 PM
hell no
i ain't gettin married
not yet anyway
yesterday my future in laws came to our house to meet my parents. they were suggesting that we get married even though we're miles away from each other!!!
no no no no no no!
i'm too polite to say that i don't like the idea. but i really don't. even though i do love biboy, i don't want to get married just for the sake of the baby, the benefits we're gonna get if we're married, etc. to people who don't know the kind of relationship biboy and i have, they would think that this is another classic case of "pikot".
ever since i was a little girl, i have been dreaming about my future wedding. i remember watching movies and tv specials of weddings and thinking about my own. of course, i would prefer a simple and intimate affair - with close family and friends, and with the man i love.
i have found the perfect man, but the question now is, do i really wanna get married?
everyone, esp his side of the family, is expecting a church wedding. his relatives are saying that even if we have a civil wedding at first, i deserve a church wedding afterwards. god knows i wanted one!
i have been thinking about this since last night. i had to admit i got excited. i was thinking that for once, i'm gonna be the star, i'm gonna be pampered. i actually missed out on a 7th bday party, a debut, but now i'm gonna get married! in church!
then i started surfing for how much a decent wedding costs. 150K is a good enough budget. well, if i'm the groom i can afford this. i can even throw in a 2nd honeymoon (well we're gonna have a baby)! my mom doesn't want the family to carry the cost of a wedding so she's not even suggesting a church wedding. it's his family who did.
now i'm torn. i know he won't be able to afford the wedding of my dreams. i'm being materialistic, but i'd rather not get married at all.
i'm sorry biboy. it would really seem like i'm asking too much. i would only get married once, so if ever i tried getting married, then i would want it to be perfect
daydream mode... my dream wedding (time to feel sorry for myself, no one reads this blog anyway haha, lucky me!)
i would like to wear a white dress, put on make up, have my hair curled or whatever, the works man. i mean, for a not-so-pretty girl like me, my wedding would be the last time i could have my hair and make up done and look beautiful. i mean, look at my prom and grad pics! simon cowell would cringe and say that i got dressed in the dark
i would like my sister as my maid of honor. oh, and my gay cousin herson could be one too! at his request
i would finally get my mom to wear a gown... something i haven't seen her do in all my 22 years on earth. the mothers of the bride and groom to be should wear matching outfits
biboy would be looking so handsome in a barong... or a tux... i'd prefer a barong. he'd look better in a barong.
my entourage could wear whatever they wanna wear. it would be less expensive for me, plus, if they buy their own outfits they can choose whatever style they want so they can wear it elsewhere. honestly now, my friends are excited to dress up for my wedding. sorry to disappoint you guys, but this church wedding would only happen in my dreams
my baby would wear a beautiful gown, or a nice barong. she could be our flower girl or he could be the ring bearer. if ever i'm getting married, i'd time it so he/she could already walk down the aisle by his/herself. at almost 2 yrs old, perhaps?
no need to hire a professional photographer now. i could ask kuya (chris, my teammate) to take our pics. he took the pics of another teammate's wedding. but i would like to have nice pre-nups done of biboy and i
the cake! haven't thought about it though. i don't like a towering cake. a simple wedding cake will do. no one likes to eat those anyway...
i know someone who can cater. my teammate's got a catering business, and so does my college classmate. maybe i can get a discount
if only jigs is in the phils, i would get him to sing at my wedding. it has been our joke during college that he would sing at my wedding. too bad he's in canada. he told us he'd be going home in 2 or 3 yrs for vacation though
wedding car... ours will do just fine
then after the wedding we'd get home with our baby. no need for a honeymoon. we're already past that phase
our wedding would be the most memorable day of my life
not gonna happen
god, why do i have to do this post just to feel sorry for myself
marian, the preggy drama queen
being pregnant with no man to take care of you could really make you think... a lot!
i love him, i miss him, but i don't think i want to be with him
4:56 PM
yup.. you're reading that right.
i love him.. .a lot
i miss him... a lot
but i don't think i want to be with him
even if we're going to have a child together
meeting my daddy biboy is the best thing that happened to me. the two months i spent with him are the best two months of my life. i felt that he feels the same way about me
but that was then
last week i saw him exchanging emails with the same girl he cheated his ex with. he told her how much he misses the girl, how he won't forget her, how much he wanted to date her had she emailed him while he was here in the phils. the emails were dated 23rd of April, 4 days after he left! so i don't think he's being homesick, no no
what hurts the most is during that time i remember him telling me how much he misses me, and he even cried once. so during that time, he was also reminiscing about the "stolen" times he spent with the girl, while he still had a girlfriend
so there were three emails. there's him asking about the girl's boyfriend, though. but at the end he asked her out, saying that should the girl have emailed him earlier, he could have dated her because of their "pinagsamahan". finish whatever they started, perhaps?
he didn't even tell the girl that he's got a girlfriend - me!
i know i shouldn't have been affected, because whatever relationship they had - which is also illicit - happened in the past, before he even met me. but i can't help it. not when i knew of all this after i found out i was pregnant. not really a good thing for a preggy girl to go through
what made it worse for me, was the girl wasn't even his ex-girlfriend! it was just someone introduced to him, they went out a few times, made out a few times as well - on his girlfriend's back! god knows, he might even have slept with her, although he won't admit it to me.
oh, and when asked, he said that his ex knew he was seeing the other girl, but forgave him. his ex didn't know he was also lip locking that other girl
i knew he had a few girlfriends - my guy was good looking. but he didn't tell me about this affair he had. all the time i've been honest to him - i've told him bout my ex, my flings, some other stuff i did - but he can't even be honest to me
of course i blew my top off when i found out. i forgave him - heck, those were just emails. he was claiming he doesn't mean what he said in those emails. he just said those... just because he wasn't thinking...
and he wants to impress her by telling her he misses her, wont forget her, and he's been looking for her everywhere
lame excuse
i still can't understand why he has to tell the girl that when he doesn't really mean it
all the time he was telling me he loves me, he was thinking of that other girl
men
my guy has been telling he loves me, and he won't hurt me again. he broke my trust. it was a small thing - just emails, throw in a few internet chats or so - but still he hurt me real bad. God knows i've been crying every night, thinking about how he can't be honest to me, when i've been nothing but honest to him
am i really a girl no guy would take seriously? after what i've been through, don't i deserve to be happy?
he has been telling me that he wants to marry me when he comes back. how could i be sure that he won't seek out that other girl and continue whatever affair they had? what if another person from his past came back to haunt him? what if he gets introduced to another girl and he falls into temptation - again?
i wish he won't do that to me
i know i might be being paranoid, but my guy has a history of cheating on a girlfriend. what's the difference between his ex and me? what if he does it me...
i've made up my mind. i won't be marrying him.. even if i'm having his baby.
i don't think i want to marry a guy i don't trust completely
i'm hoping that, when he comes back, he would change my mind. he would make me fall in love with him again the same way that i did before i found out about his mistakes
i'm hoping that he would prove himself to me, and that we could live together, and my baby doesn't have to grow up without a dad
i'm happy now. i'm pregnant. i'm gonna have a kid. whatever happens, i made him swear to take care of my baby even if we don't end up being together
still i'm praying
i'm praying that he would keep his word and not hurt me again
i don't think i want to be with him... yet
The Punk Rock Princess
born on the eighth day of
the ninth month on the eighty-fifth year of the nineteenth century.
nerdy.
went to st james
college of paranaque for twelve years. never failed a subject. graduated top of
the graduating class of two thousand two.
studied accountancy in de la
salle university for three years and two terms. never failed a subject.
consistent dean's lister. graduated honorable mention on the twelfth month of
the fifth year of the new millenium.
went to cpar for cpa board
exam review. passed the board on her mom's forty-fourth birthday. started
working on the same day.
reads a lot.
wears
glasses/contacts
punk rock
princess.
loves to listen to
alternative and rock music. would also listen to new age music whenever she
feels like it.
likes to sing rock songs on
videoke nights. favorites include bohemian rhapsody, beautiful day, i wanna be
sedated.
dressed as a punk rocker for
the company christmas party. colleagues said the costume suited her.
with a rebel
side.
has three piercings on each
ear.
plans on getting a
tatoo.
would swear when pissed off
about something.
made a lot of mistakes (most
recently in the love department) but learned through them.
got into trouble in high
school. almost stripped of honors.
lets classmates copy from
her exams.
but still your
ordinary girl
likes reading fantasy,
science fiction, and horror novels. would also read general fiction if worth
reading.
likes to eat filipino street
food. would also eat in fine dining restaurants if budget permits.
likes taking pictures and
having her pictures taken.
loves shopping.
loves watching
movies.
and many other things
besides. read her blog
OBSESSIONS
- GREEN
DAY
- U2
- THE RAMONES
- RENT (THE
MUSICAL)
- ICE CREAM
- OYSTERS (?)
-
HARRY POTTER
- BLOGGING
LOATHES
- PETTY
FOOLS
- HIP HOP MUSIC
- FILIPINO DRAMAS WITH SPANISH
TELENOVELA INFLUENCES
- ARROGANT LOCALS
